Jasmine Marie

My Jasmine how much my attitude has changed about you.  As I look back I remember how reluctant I was to get a dog with so much going on in my life, I remember that first hug you gave me when you picked me to be your mommy.  You have been my rock, my best friend, my protector, the one I cried on and the one who supported me through the toughest of times.  So many years of our lives were hard on us, but life is better now, and we made it through together.  As I look at you today, I can see the peace in your eyes, that emotional bond we have can never be replaced.  My Jassy-Pooh, I respect you and love you more than words can say, love mommy.

Just a few short months ago, this was the dedication to my little girl in the album contest entry for CTMH.  As I read it today, I am lost for words.  Arriving home on Sunday from my cruise with Tim Holtz and my gal pals all is fine in my little world. Monday, back in the groove....as I get ready to settle down for the night my dogs heard the scattering of an animal in the woods behind our home and in a flash all were on the porch investigating the disturbance.  And out from my girls mouth came a horrible cry of pain.  I ran to her side, unable to stand, my husband picked her up and placed her in her bed.  After examining her it was clear that she had broken her right front leg.  I feverishly rush to back the truck into the garage and we carry Jasmine bed and all into the truck and off to the emergency clinic we go.  

An hour and a half later they finally give Jasmine some morphine, since she had fallen into such a state of shock.  Once the drugs had taken effect they did the x-ray of her leg.  The news was life changing, not only had she broken her leg, but she had broken it because she had bone cancer and it had just snapped in half.  The only unselfish thing to do was to let Jasmine go.  Jasmine is 10 1/2 years old and has been a major part of my grown up life.  Three days later and I still question my decision, but I'm sure Jasmine is in a better place.   I miss you Jassie, there is such an empty place in my heart and my home without you.  Love mommy.

Thanks for letting me share this part of my life and my healing process.